Hello Love Talks,
It's been a long time, I apologize for my absence but it seems as though I have been colossally busy with my new job that I haven't even thought about my blog. But I have to share my recent adventures with looking for love.
This blog is titled "the man" because I have run into all types of men in the past few months and it just amazes me how all these personalities and fitting the puzzle pieces has been like trying to finish a game of minesweeper.
The overly thirst 32 year old who cannot think past his smaller head for more than ten minutes to realize he could've had a good woman by his side had he took the time to notice her and cater to her requests in addition to his demands. Then calls back three weeks later to "chill", do I look like I was born last night?
The love-crazed 45 year old with nothing better to do than send love notes and "romantic" calls a week after the first meeting and two days after the first date. Hold on with the romance buddy, it's been less than a month and I am the "queen of your kingdom", what's really going on? I may be guarded with my heart but you are getting a little ahead of yourself.
The sweet love whom I have had a falling out with and then he continues to say after he kisses me and spends the night holding me in my bed that we purely physical and its all platonic. Then don't come into my room and toy with my emotions. I already know that my feelings are fragile and I refuse to let you come back into my life in that way. No sirreee! But wait last night tells me that he wants to be my lover and all fun and games aside, let's try again, 3rd times a charm, right? Wrong. I'm so confused.
The crazy ex-con with a considerable aggression problem and his desire to continually have a sexually relationship when I have reproductive issues. Thank you for your consideration as you just proved to me that I was a viable dummy doll used for "insert penis here". Ugh.
The sweet and gentle photographer whom I have talked all my talk away lol and tried to relax my standards. He is everything a girl wants except he does not have a relationship with God. I did not come this far in my faith to fail now. And I am not in the business of changing people. But man is he the most sensual guy you will ever meet and rocks my body in unexplored places.
The blast from the past ex whom has always had an interesting pull on me. I don't know if its love but I don't know if it's less either. The fear of stepping forward with a man who's life habits does not suit risk so many consequences.
The cheater whom despite all the woman he has cannot seem to relieve himself on his own and feels the constant need to share how much "help" he "needs". This is like a slap in the face to my progress. I have been a cheater and cheated on and I do not wish to inflict that kind of pain on anyone.
The sullen, desperate ex of the mother trying to fetch the daughter is a interesting yet disturbing case of "Really, you can't be serious right now!". How do I even began to look at a future with you, you slept with my mother, a line I refuse to cross, not now, not ever!
The creepy neighbor who undresses me with his eyes everytime I walk out the house with my dog. I really wish you would keep your eyes in your head and focus on your almost three month old son. I can't believe you have the nerve to even tell me "we should go out sometime". It's sickening, your supposed to be like my uncle or something thats what you called yourself when I was a minor.
And this is just twenty-twelve...stay tuned! -_-
