Hello fellow bloggers and readers,
It's only fair that I open up my feelings to ya once again. It was a tough weekend with my family. We had a lunch for my grandmother's birthday when everybody decided to have an intervention on me at the end. It is so unfair that my family would attack me when all I am trying to do is find love. Find a person that will inspire me to become a better person. I realize that I am a young, educated woman with many accomplishments and achievements and far many more dreams and goals. The life that I set out to live was already greater than anything people could ever imagine. Although I want a simple life, I want a happy one with clear beginnings, middles and ends.
My family said that I have to be careful about who I date and let into my life because I own property now and I have a secured many blessings that are to be protected. I believe that we are all trying to find our way. I seem to always run into what they state, "is just not good enough." But who are they to judge? Who is anyone to judge a man's character by his state of belongings. In reality, I do not know exactly what I am looking for, but I know that I want someone who is going to love me as I love God. Someone who is going to protect me and the relationship that we build together. I will not and do not want to be controlled, but I will submit to my husband as the Bible says a wife should submit to her husband. I just do not understand why I have ran into so many souls that want to take and take and take but not give.
I do have to learn to receive, a hard lesson that I am learning slowly and with care. I have found multiple reasons to be frustrated and disappointed with my love life. But then I realize that maybe I should be focused on the one and only love that truly matters: God's love. To be fair, I do not think I have given myself enough time to reflect and think about the future and what it may hold once I do find the time to really become the woman I want to be. So, should I let this person go that has made promises of love and affection and everything that I have dreamed of. I have got to clear my mind of this plague of confusion that has consumed my thoughts and dreams. I must seek the Lord with all my might this week. I will say that it has been nice, not to be alone for a few days at a time. It has made me see what a possible married life would be and although frustrating, it is rewarding to work together with someone to keep up a home, a family.
I have sufficiently rambled for the night. I will be sure to fix all my thoughts in a later post. Have a wonderful night.
