Baby Love

Hello Lovers...

Hope everyone is good out there in Blogger land. I have a confession to make on Love Talks.  It's one close to my heart, it will be from the heart and from my mind.  So I am still young but getting older and I am feeling the pull of being a mother.  It was strong years ago that I almost had a baby at 19 but I came to my senses that I would not have been in the best position to raise a child but now it's getting strong again.  The doctors have told me this year that they don't want me to get another LEEP procedure because then it is likely to affect my fertility but if the progression of the HPV gets worst it will have to come down to the former.  I hate the thought of not being able to have children or risk giving them an STD before they have even enjoyed their life.  I have to say to all the young lovers out there.  Be careful! Be safe! Yes, I thought I was going to marry the first man I had sex with but that was not the case and instead, I am infected with a virus for the rest of my life that could possibly lead to cancer of the cervix.

I really wanted to share my story as a warning and to share that I almost would follow to the advice of my mother.  She said if it came down to it and they told me that a procedure would affect my infertility that I should have a baby and set aside some money and forget what everyone else has to say.

I think I would make a great mother.  I love kids, I love being around kids, teaching kids, giving them love.  Of course, I would like to have those bundles of joys with a husband by my side but my mom has been divorced for practically all my life and I think she did a great job with the support of my father on the side.  So if you have a baby, be grateful and thankful.  Give that baby love and support.  Baby love.  How could you not love such an adorable person? With ten little toes and ten little fingers.

I thank God for my goddaughter to help fill that void a little bit when I feel like I can't cope and need to be around a child.  I've been having nightmares and all sorts of random, crazy thoughts.  I know I should trust God and that he has a plan for my life that maybe I didn't have for myself but it is nerve-wrecking and I can't help but worry sometimes.

Shout out to all the mothers in Love land.  All the baby love. :)